| Abstract: | 此論文的撰寫對個人而言是一個重新對待自我的探求過程，同時也是一種對生活狀態的紀錄，是關於最靠近自己的那一個她；關於眼睛裡頭和心靈境地的窺視；關於末梢神經所感覺到的溫度；關於對身體誠實的想望。 「暱膩」為此創作論述的題目，透過對自己這個時期的創作來做一些較完整的解析，不論是從歷史上的，或者日常的，甚至是生命經驗當中的，從脈絡抽絲剝繭後，我必須試圖將自己放到一個更有意義的位置上，並且找到更多藝術的靈光。作品主要選擇以女性的身體、手、髮膚來作為創作的主軸，欲以肢體來表現一種人類對於慾望的觀看，關於身體的溫度，運動的線條；表情的牽引，思緒的流動之種種，不諱言的，這些正是從前至現今都存在不滅的東西，一如慾望本身。 不管哪一種性別，都必須藉由身體去表達各種情緒與感受，一個眼神；一個手勢；抑或是抿唇和皺眉，都可能是心底直接的表露。其中的表達對象，不只是他者，也包含了自身，在相處與獨處之間，低喃的不只是言語，可能是更能夠感受到情緒的體溫。第一章從個人創作動機與表現形式開始說明；第二章從個人內在的方向出發，並試圖連結與創作相關的生命經驗；第三章從個人的創作主旨去延伸思考，並從社會現象或歷史脈絡中去發掘與自身創作的關照之處；第四章為個人的創作解析，第五章則是本論文的總結。 對於筆者的創作來說，這是一個新的階段；從研一、二的碰撞至今，不斷的嘗試，希冀可以透過更完整的方向，來讓自己在創作與生活上可以有更多動力與更成熟的成長，能夠讓心靈與生命發掘出更有強度與能量的溫暖。
Writing this thesis is an exploring process of retreating myself, and also a record of living condition about her -- the person who lives nearest to me, about peeping deep in her eyes and soul, about the warmth felt on the nerve endings, and about the desire honest to body. “The Skin She Live In” is the discussing topic of this creation. Through the relatively comprehensive analysis on my works during this period of time -- no matter in history, daily life or life experience -- after careful selection, I have to attempt to put myself on a more meaningful position to pursuit more artistic inspiration. This work selects female body, hands, hair and skin as the primary axis of creation, intending to utilize limb to express human image of the watch for desire, the temperature of body, the lines of motion, the traction of expression and the flow of thoughts and so on, all of which, to be honest, endure forever just like the desire itself.No matter what gender is, it must express feelings and emotions through body language -- a glance, a gesture, even lip lick and frown can be direct exposure of inner thoughts. In addition, the expressing objects also include others and oneself. The murmur expresses not only the literal meanings but also the temperature of emotion between their getting along with others and being alone. Chapter one first introduces individual creation motive and presentation; chapter two starts from individual inner perspective, and tries to link with life experience that relevant to creation; chapter three considers and stretches from individual creative gist, and attempts to dig the common ideas between social phenomenon or historical events and self-creation; chapter four is an analysis of personal creation; chapter five is a summary of this thesis.For the author’s creation, this is a new stage. Since the collision of ideas in first two years of graduate till now, the author has wished that through continuous trials, a more comprehensive direction can be acquired to offer more motivation and mature growth both in writer’s creation and life, and to explore more intensive and powerful warmth of life and soul. |
